Heartbreak is the national anthem, we sing it proudly

Since we are young, we are taught that heartbreaks are the worst thing that can happen to us. We see it in soap operas, movies, etc. Usually, it is the woman who has to carry with all the emotional stuff that a heartbreak brings. I am not saying that men don't suffer, of course they do, but to be honest, I've seen way more women suffering from a heartbreak than men. Heartbreaks are horrible, I'm not saying anything new. Isn't it horrible when you trust someone with all your heart and they leave as if nothing had happened? Or isn't it so shitty when you see the one you once loved so happy with someone they chose over you? (Even uglier, hehe). 

It's awful to see how many beautiful and amazing women cry and suffer over immature guys who don't even know what they want in life, and there was a time when I was one of those girls. If you are going through a heartbreak, I know how terrible it is, and how is it to feel unappreciated, disrespected and disappointed, let alone sad and angry because you know you never deserved that kind of treatment. It is even worse when you're crying and your soul feels devastated while the jerk is playing around with some ...girls. Or he's just playing videogames while you are in your bed trying to process everything or just trying to get distracted from all the crap they gave you. To all these women, I only have to say something: I understand you. It may not be something big or something important, but when we're going through those moments, we just want to be heard and understood. 

I don't know if many people will read this, but in case you do, I have a nice heartbreak playlist for you, which I divided in two parts: the red moments and the firework moments. The red moments are the ones where you experience grief, devastation and pure sadness. The latter, are the ones where you feel you're finally clean and understand that actually, God made you a favor by removing that toxic piece of shit of your life. 

For the red moments:

All Too Well - Taylor Swift

I'm Not The Only One - Sam Smith

If I Were a Boy - Beyoncé

Take a Bow - Rihanna

Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri

For the firework moments:

We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together - Taylor Swift

Don't Start Now - Dua Lipa

Tusa - Karol G, Nicki Minaj

Part of Me - Katy Perry

New Romantics - Taylor Swift

If you've read until this point, I thank you for that and I hope you feel better or at least you've had some fun reading my thoughts. I just know that everything happens for a reason, and that actually, freedom is disguised in a heartbreak, that's the meaning I've found in heartbreak after some time... as my beloved Taylor Swift says: "heartbreak is the national anthem, we sing it proudly".

Pd: The best people in life are free.

L 

Celebrations

There have been many times in my life when I ask myself if the things I do are just as valuable as everyone else's. Those who know me are aware of my passion to work hard, to stand out, to try to give my best in everything I do. One year ago, I was graduating from college and years before, I used to think that that day was gonna be one of the best of my life, but ironically, it ended being such a blue day. 

What do you do if every single time someone asks you about your birthdays, Christmases or special days, you mostly have bad memories or no memories at all because your loved ones don't consider your achievements as special? What if you think about those days and still feel somehow saddened by that? What if everytime you see someone happily celebrating their birthdays and those special dates I mentioned above, you feel like no one cares about yours? 

I know that one shouldn't live life thinking about pleasing others or doing things for other people's sake. But wouldn't it be nice if someone made you feel special on those days and tell you warm words like "you did well", "you are amazing" or "you were able to overcome this"? I'm gonna turn 25 in less than three months, and I still don't know how it feels to have a surprise party, or how it feels to have your friends coming home to tell you "Happy birthday". I feel like I'm always celebrating others, like I'm always going to other's places to celebrate or spend time, but no one ever comes my way to cheer me up or to say hello when something good happens in my life. However, I hope it can change. I honestly don't want to spend more "special" days at home, alone and staring at the ceiling. 

If you have read everything so far, thank you so much. This is not a happy post but I know some people could feel identified with the feeling I'm trying to describe here. 

L